What happens when your expectations become your limitations?

Fashion, styling, gossip, drama, runway shows...is what my life SHOULD be about...unfortunately, my life has taken a temporarily permanent hault. If that is at all possible, I've achieved it! I'm a girl who's expectations after college have completely limited my lifetime goals. People expect a fashion designer's life to be fabulous and fun... when it's the total opposite. Maybe after all the hard work and sacrifices...yeah I guess life would be fun and fabulous but at what cost really? See I expected immediate success right after college because I KNOW my designs are hot and different, but sometimes that's not enough. Sometimes you have to sacrifice alot more than you think, and sometimes I think is it really worth it? Am I going to be happy after getting all the way to the top? I don't know, and this is what scares me.